I have had the idea for a while now that i had become lost while on the journey of discovery. For the last few years i have felt like i should have got IT by now, that others have got IT and i was standing right next to them in the same room doing the same course/workshop/seminar/networking event. It baffled me and my mind worked overtime to try and work it out, this only lead to me going deeper into the fog and further off the path. Coming back from there has been like eating an aha moment onion. I suppose it wasn't just one diversion that had set me off my path so it was going to be more than one aha moment to steer me back. 

Some of the more memorable aha moments have been, when it dawned on me that after i had done the courses/workshops etc i then listened too closely to what the mentors/gurus told me to do and how they saw us all doing things. Doing courses is great, morphing into clones of them is not. Conforming to the predetermined box they want is one quick way to suffocate your soul.

Next memorable AHA was the realisation that I am from a long line of strong feminine women within my family and what I always saw as being in my masculine with very little feminine strength was a huge illusion. I am very much in touch with my strong confident feminine side.

Being my authentic self has been very high on my list of values, being honest, open and real is very important. Letting things flow with the knowledge that some journeys are a bit like white water rapids, they scar the hell out of you as well as being exhilarating and scary. My biggest AHA moment came today when i received my OSHO Zen Tarot card of the day on my iPhone it was “Ordinariness” – my initial thought was ohhhh great who wants to be celebrate being ordinary. I then read the card and there were the words that put it all together and gave me the biggest goosebumps in a very long time.

My message is

“In being Ordinary you are Extraordinary!“

So what facades and masks can you drop to let your Ordinary shine to the world?

Isn’t it about time the world saw you?

 

Words on the card:
Sometimes it happens that you become one, in some rare moment. Watch the ocean, the tremendous wildness of it–and suddenly you forget your split, your schizophrenia; you relax. Or, moving in the Himalayas, seeing the virgin snow on the Himalayan peaks, suddenly a coolness surrounds you and you need not be false because there is no other human being to be false to. You fall together. Or, listening to beautiful music, you fall together. Whenever, in whatsoever situation, you become one, a peace, a happiness, a bliss, surrounds you, arises in you. You feel fulfilled. There is no need to wait for these moments–these moments can become your natural life. These extraordinary moments can become ordinary moments – that is the whole effort of Zen. You can live an extraordinary life in a very ordinary life: cutting wood, chopping wood, carrying water from the well, you can be tremendously at ease with yourself. Cleaning the floor, cooking food, washing the clothes, you can be perfectly at ease–because the whole question is of you doing your action totally, enjoying, delighting in it.

Osho Dang Dang Doko Dang Chapter 3

Commentary:

This figure walking in nature shows us that beauty can be found in the simple, ordinary things of life. We so easily take this beautiful world we live in for granted. Cleaning the house, tending the garden, cooking a meal–the most mundane tasks take on a sacred quality when they are performed with your total involvement, with love, and for their own sake, without thought of recognition or reward. You are facing a time now when this easy, natural and utterly ordinary approach to the situations you encounter will bring far better results than any attempt on your part to be brilliant, clever, or otherwise extra-ordinary. Forget all about making headlines by inventing the latest widget, or dazzling your friends and colleagues with your unique star quality. The special gift you have to offer now is presented best by just taking things easily and simply, one step at a time.